Being a Christian, the word 'courage' is often used. We are told to be full of courage because God is always with us and he will help us through. Now during this time of infertility and uncertainty, I have never doubted that He is with me. I know that. But it doesn't make me feel … Continue reading Courage during infertility
Female infertility? Male infertility?
In a recent post, I explained that my results have all come back clear but my husband's came back showing low morphology (the shape, size and overall quality of the sperm). Our GP explained he'd need the test repeated again and she reassured us that it would probably come back as all clear which would … Continue reading Female infertility? Male infertility?
Beautiful things take time… and that’s okay. – MHN
Just this. Absolutely this. My heart longs for something more beautiful than I already have. But it will take time. In fact, it feels like it is taking an eternity (it's not but I've been known to be melodramatic from time to time according to my husband...). Today, as I did yesterday, and I am … Continue reading Beautiful things take time… and that’s okay. – MHN
It’s all just a bit much
It's just gone midnight, I came to bed almost 2 hours ago and I've been laying here since. Today this battle, journey, experience - whatever you want to call it - feels a bit too much. I am so tired, so, so tired. Physically I'm shattered from not sleeping, emotionally I'm drained beyond words, spiritually … Continue reading It’s all just a bit much
Am I less of a woman?
https://www.instagram.com/p/Bmqhulwg_n3/?igshid=d4bcwzhobf36 I guess in my journey, this is less of a question and more of a statement; I am less of a woman. When I see a woman walking around with her beautiful bump, or carrying her newborn baby, or pushing a precious little one in their pram, or holding the hands of someone who … Continue reading Am I less of a woman?
“When are you having a baby?” When people don’t know what they’re saying
This. This has to be up there with one of the toughest parts about infertility. When people state or ask inappropriate questions to the people who are struggling with trying to have a baby (usually because they don't know). When do you think you'll have a baby? Your turn next! Don't you want children? You've … Continue reading “When are you having a baby?” When people don’t know what they’re saying
The results are in…
Little warning for those who know us and don't want to know the incredibly personal details of our fertility, this post will be pretty detailed! On Monday 16th December 2019, we went to the lovely female GP for a summery of all of my clear results (see previous post) and the results of my husband's … Continue reading The results are in…
Falling apart at clear results. Is that normal?
The text read, "The result of your recent test is normal. No further action is needed at this stage." This was 2 hours after my final initial tests (the internal and external scans) and it was lunchtime at school. I read the text and was confused. Why or how could they be telling me the … Continue reading Falling apart at clear results. Is that normal?
Tests, tests and more tests. Where did my dignity go?
Following on from our amazing GP appointment, now it was time for us to begin our initial tests to see if there was a reason we were struggling to conceive and now labelled as 'infertile'. I have to be honest, I was scared. Like really scared. When I was talking to my mum and my … Continue reading Tests, tests and more tests. Where did my dignity go?
The journey we didn’t plan
This is going to be a long one, I apologise in advance... The journey we had both dreamt would be ours towards parenthood has slowly but very surely fallen away. I had dreams of becoming a mother since being a child and always knew what I wanted it to look like. 3 children, 2 of … Continue reading The journey we didn’t plan
Journeying to Family 