I don't know where to start really. I feel empty. Hopeless. Broken. Lost. My heart is aching and hurting in a way that it has never felt before. Life after a failed IVF is a messy and confusing place, and not the kind of experience I would wish on anyway. I am struggling to focus … Continue reading Life after a failed IVF →

Tomorrow our we will have our first indication of whether our treatment is heading in a positive direction. The reality that this is ‘IT’ feels quite heavy on both of us. I have waited until now to write anything for a variety of reasons. Partly, ongoing expression of emotions is not really my style, I … Continue reading Breaking The Silence; A message from my husband →

I am not pregnant. Our IVF has failed. There is nothing to show for the past 2 and a half months of trauma that we have been through. Nothing except loads of empty syringes; empty pill packets; a scan of an embryo inside me; bruises still lingering from injections; a heavy and painful period; a … Continue reading Big. Fat. Negative. →

The dreaded TWW. In normal situations, this is the 2 weeks in between ovulation and when your period is due. It can be a long wait to see if this was the month that you are actually pregnant! But for those of us infertiles, the TWW means a whole lot more. It means we have … Continue reading TWW: The Two Week Wait →

04.11.2020 - The day I got pregnant. This is what everything works towards. This is it. And it wasn't as straight forward as we were hoping for. On Day 2, we had 7 embryos still, 6 of which were top grade. I turn up for our Day 5 Embryo Transfer and they explain to me … Continue reading Time to get pregnant! Embryo Transfer! →

The worst thing about infertility is the waiting. SO. MUCH. WAITING. Even during the IVF process itself, it is one wait after another after another. It is 31st October 2020 and yesterday I had my Egg Collection where they so wonderfully managed to collect 8 eggs! This was great news but that wasn't the end. … Continue reading Day 1 Update: An Embryologist Calls… →

Fluffy socks are a must! They look pretty wonderful with the beautiful hospital gown you are given too :D! The 30th October finally arrived. We were told about this date back in July and since then have had questions about what we were to expect, what would happen and what our outcome would be. It's … Continue reading Egg collection… How many eggs!? →

Tracking scan - When you go to your clinic for a date with Wanda* to see how your ovaries are doing during your stims injections (remember - those are the injections that stimulate your ovaries to produce more follicles which each should house an egg... the more good-sized, healthy follicles, the more eggs you are … Continue reading One big disappointment; Is this over? →

Before I say anything, I just want to point out that this talks about my faith a lot. I just want to set an honest background to what I am going to say. There have been countless numbers of moments in our journey where I have questioned and doubted God. There have been days that … Continue reading “Even if…” →

This is it. Everything we have been working towards. Stims. Or stimulation injections. This is the part of the IVF cycle where I inject myself daily with hormones (Gonal-F and continuing with Buserelin but on a lower dosage) which will stimulate my ovaries to grow more follicles than usual in the hope that my body … Continue reading Let’s get stimming! Stims injections begin. →