Just this. Absolutely this. My heart longs for something more beautiful than I already have.
But it will take time. In fact, it feels like it is taking an eternity (it’s not but I’ve been known to be melodramatic from time to time according to my husband…). Today, as I did yesterday, and I am sure as I will tomorrow, I am asking God why does this need to take time?
As I was looking on other infertility blogs and finding other people in our situation, I found these quotes by Morgan Harper Nicols.
Waiting on God’s time is tough. Possibly one of the hardest thing about this is having a faith in God; knowing that He loves me, wants the best for me and that He works all things into good for those who trust in Him (Romans 8:28), but that what I want right now, isn’t happening. I am sure anyone else with a faith will know this feeling all too well!
Throughout this journey, many, many of our Christian friends and family have told us to trust in God’s timing. This is wonderful advice, but so, so hard to listen to. Most of the time I want to scream back and remind them that they are not in this situation, I am, so how dare they tell me to “trust in God’s timing…” Of course, if the shoe was on the other foot then I would 100% say the same to them.
For me though, as a Christian, I do believe that this is right. His timing is perfect.
God will say “It’s time” one day, and I hope so desperately that that day will come soon. But it may not. In the waiting, I will try to look for the beautiful things, for the ways in which He has blessed me immeasurably and I will keep reminding myself that this time is not a waste.
Journeying to Family 